Aligning Life.

… but I think I’m back and I’m relatively ready to write. I graduated from college Summa Cum Laude and it’s all over. In one day (graduation day), my life changed. I finally received a diploma I had been slaving for, but the same diploma signified that my time with my friends and life how I had known it would forever be changed. Never again would I be in the same area with all of the same people, hanging out with “friends” would be infinitely harder, or ever be an undergrad again.

My life is completely changed. It also didn’t help that my parents moved houses two days before graduation, so I didn’t even come home to my “home”. I’m also moving to California in less than a week. Life is going by so fast and I don’t even know anymore.

1. Laundry
2. Run around the lake
3. buy my brothers birthday gift (t-minus 2 days)
4. study for standardized tests (e.g. take another diagnostic)
5. begin the shopping list for things I need this year
6. start packing for school
7. have at least 6 schools on my graduate school list

Notes: Really need to do the diagnostic today. (It must get done.)

Also, I really need to buy my brother a birthday gift. I think I may trade in my xbox and buy him a new xbox just for him. (I’m a good sister to my little brother :])

I’m watching tv with my father at 4 am, we’re watching cops. It’s sensational stuff. Methinks it’s a benefit of waking up for sehar.

1. Laundry
2. Run around the lake
3. buy my brothers birthday gift (t-minus 2 days)
4. study for standardized tests (e.g. take another diagnostic)
5. begin the shopping list for things I need this year
6. start packing for school
7. have at least 6 schools on my graduate school list

Should be easy?

First, I’d like to know why this is a topic on my news feed from abc news: Bert and Ernie Do Not Have Sexual Orientation.

Second, despite napping for 3 hours today, it was a success. I spoke with finaid and reslife about the extra charges incurred on my student account and resolved the issue.

Third, I’m jamming out to Doctor Who music. Yes, I am that nerd, but it puts me in the mood to start getting my mind together. I’ve decided how I’m going to organize this blog for my thoughts. The following is my organizational structure I hope to stick to:

Organizational Structure for Aligning Life.

1. Focus on my attempt to get into graduate school
2. Include daily to-do lists (tasks may rollover) in the Morning
3. Follow up to the to-do lists
4. Weekly fitness updates (Primarily on Monday’s)
5. Any other incessant dribble I feel like posting.

I practiced my spanish, went on a walk, and cleaned the kitchen. Studying didn’t not happen, nor should it have. Though, I do think I’m letting too much time go by without studying for the GMAT’s. I’m essentially winging this test and that’s scary to me. Not only is it 250 possibly down the drain, but it could be my opportunity of a great grad school straight out of undergrad.

People keep telling me not to worry, but I am who I am. The longer I don’t study, the more I’m letting this opportunity I’ve created for myself pass me by.

… instead of watching friends

1. studying for the gmat’s
2. studying for the gre’s
3. practicing my spanish
4. cleaning the kitchen
5. going on a walk

We’ll see what happens today.

Today I officially ended my internship. To be honest, I’m extremely excited to be out of the embassy. While I loved being there and being able to cultivate my own ideas, I hated the drama that went along with it. Granted, I did learn a lot of lessons about being in an office and my friendships.

The main one is that: if I have nothing blatantly mean to say, don’t say it. Don’t be critical of anyone.

Apparently, I can’t conjucnture or speak upon what I believe a situation is because either way it’ll bite me in the behind in the end. I suppose I had learned that lesson in college, but it a different context for sure.

From now on, I think I need to say what I say and tell someone to their face. But if someone won’t listen to my advice, what do I do then?

I’m tired not being able to vocalize my frustrations, yet, every time I do. It haunts me.

Last night, I was able to see Taylor Swift perform. Hands down, she is the best performer I have seen live. Tops all three jonas brothers concerts I have seen. Close to the love for Matchbox twenty, but you honestly cannot compare the two. When Taylor performed her music, she was literally bringing a story to life. That’s something that’s hard to do, but she pulled it off so effortlessly.

Going to NYC on a 3:30 am train with a girl I met through studying the GMAT’s. I think that’s doing life. A year ago, I doubt I could have mustered enough courage to tell my parents I wanted to go. Yet, here I am going. It’s funny, the last time I was in NYC I met up with my best friend from England and we meandered the city. 

It’s days like this where I truly wonder what my life would have been like had I chosen to go to England for my higher education. Would I have been more adventureous? Would I have had the life I had always imagined?

Don’t get me wrong, I love my current school and my friends and my life. There’s always that what if I went back question that haunts my mind every so often.